What I have but never enough, money.

   I can understand the feel of being poor. After visiting places like India and China, I have seen many people that aren't that privileged to even have the 3 basic survival items, proper food, water and shelter. Beggars out on the streets, homeless and fragile, their eyes would tell me how difficult things have been in their life. speechless, I could only feel how they felt.

   When I was young, little did my parents had had the money to buy me a toy, it was like," Boy, you could only find something that was below $10". anything more and the answer is no." It was only during my birthday my parents said that to me. I was, of course, upset and made many noises at that time but I did realise that the money could be used for better things, savings for a meal or two, buying the household essentials, or even save for the better. Earning the money was never an easy or straightforward responsibility to handle. How hard my parents were in, I guess it was just tough. Money doesn't come easy, they were feeding me with good, not lucrative, but decent enough to live happily.

   I had a big family who provides the best food every single gathering we have, simple yet always pleasing for the stomach. This is also a reason why I was not able to get out of my house and taste outside food often. Clueless on what the best food for dates, for my friends gathering, for my colleagues, anybody that was not part of my family, I had failed to impress to take the initiative for a place to have decent food when I am planning to go out with them. On the other hand, I have gotten the chance to be with my peers and friends to eat outside. At first, it was kind of hard to me especially when I was still a student without any source of income other than my pocket money ($5 a day), so I had to save more and find part time jobs to survive.

   Now that I had graduated and found a job, I had helped to lessen the burdens my working brother who had to provide when I was still a student. I was able to get myself the basics (clothes, food and money for my parents to spend) Furthermore, I tend to help the less fortunate and less happy people that I could give to make them happy, in a form of gifts or encouraging words, I knew. I guess it just another way of giving, and I always feel happy giving without wanting anything back.

   It was tedious, hard, but I endure like what my parents did. I will continue to work hard and give what I could to live humbly with them.


-Moo-

The Power of Love

It's really scary when you get attached to someone. You spend precious time with him, you get to know him. You find yourselves knowing their favorite color, food, movies, songs, hobbies. You discover his flaws and strengths. And as time past, you learned more and more about one another, absorbing every second of details without even realizing it. Then one day you woke up and realize how much he actually means to you, and you love him for who he is. He gave you the trust and security, but most of all, he brings you a way of life. And to bring happiness to someone in such a way is a strong and powerful thing. It could break a person completely. Some say those who fall in love hard are young and dumb, but I say they show an incredible amount of bravery which many didn't want to take a risk to get hurt. It takes courage to trust somebody with your heart.

adapted from a friend.

The journey on chasing a girl is exciting, yet many qns did not came across your mind. you just want to get her to be by your side. somebody whom you feel she can talk to, share with and fall in love. Your handphone messages, your mind, anything you are doing, leaves in you her beautiful image. Then one day, you realised how much the person means to you. By then it's not pretty obvious you love her. I had many crushes like normal people do, but often, we stayed quiet because we don't have the courage to step up. Until one day the feeling so strong, one step up and confess, usually the guy. this action is unknowingly courageable, dumb and perhaps you knew at the point of time, you can't lived without her.

我还在寻找一个依靠和 一个拥抱.

-Moo-

Trails of life

I once told her that life would not be the same like how we used to talk when she fell in love. Now that she has a boyfriend, hopefully she will understand why i had said that. There was once a wise man told me that sometimes love is letting go feelings and start anew. Only then you will understand life goes on.

Friendship do leaves an etch deeper than you thought.
-Moo-

伤心又开心的事

    I thought I will never fell in love again after my ex. It indeed bring some pain and also happiness for a girl who was recently attached. It is only when she mentioned she was red, i reflected and thought of her, and grew to like her. Shouldn't really be falling for this trap, but i guess this is what love is, unknowingly mysterious until something happens. I knew that i gradually fell for this girl because she is the closest i communicate with but she got attached before i could understand her better and make my move. Flashes of the past of what we did together, talk about life to each other and her presence during meeting made me shed a tear. Reflecting... i managed to console myself, reflecting on 那些年 (it really taught me lots of things), I should be happy she has found somebody who can give her happiness as for now and I should mooved on. You may seen it as something 伟大 but i think this is just my personality, and how i was brought up.  I think its good to let feelings known to someone close to you, and voice out your inner feelings. They may not give you the best advice to what u should do next. To whether you should tell the girl, i have really no idea, i intended to, but i feel theres no need until a certain time, perhaps a note will be sufficient. You may try telling someone close to her. 不可以活在過去. 我要继续奋斗! to singles out there, let's jiayou!!!!

-moo-

AFTH 2

AFTH 12/13 committee is coming to an end this Aug with the new committee taking over. Officially it will be over by then, and i will have to moove on to let the younger ones bring AFTH higher to another level. Many of them were thinking why am i so wei da? its not, its because the time i spent in AFTH is more than my studies and i will wish for a change, now i am in year 4, i would prefer to concentrate more on my FYP and studies. CCA will comes in 2nd. #needsacompanion I am really happy that 15 of them still wanted to stay on to help AFTH for their 2nd year, achievement unlocked. We won the best committee and the family award once again which marks the closeness bond we had shown over the year.

Reflecting on the year, there's so much to say, so much to rmb and also so much that i do not want to let go. People always say good things will always have an end, which to me, i nvr like it. I am sure most of you doesn't too. I remember i join as a programmer on the 2nd main committee meeting and i have to briefly introduce myself to everyone."Hi, my name is Moo Teng, you can call me Moo. Last year i was from biz mag, dont treat me like a senior, but u can ask me qns, no formality, k." Thank you! After that, someone mentioned the top three oldest ppl in the committee. I can rmb that so clearly.#mainpoint

None of the committee members live near the South. If so, the expected someone would then accompany me back from school. you know the feeling of going back alone. Fortunately, there is one who would accompany to my station but travels further. It was that night i get to know more about my chief, my program chief, a newbie to afth and cac. Every other committee meeting, we went back home on the same route. We would chat anything other thing in the world and advice each other on the next step to take on programs. Miss the chatting part and bonding to know more about each other as I was having IA. Thus, our bond shu yuan le. In the end, the person i got closer with is my friend ym, who tirelessly came down to school with me during the exam period to finish our event games booth. He was having his IA too. I am proud to have a friend like him, having similar characters, we began to cherish our friendship, even since we join afth together in year 1.

This year programmers come strong with a total strength of 9, 7 programmers with 2 chiefs attached to us which i can say sufficient for a project. I can say we had the best bonds and understanding of each other. Feeling attached, most of us still hang out together every month. So lets keep the meeting constant!

I miss the HTHT we had, and i am pretty sure my eyes and ears are wide open to listen to real stuff. I was amazed how ppl react differently on me. and i request for feedback. some of the info i got..
1) unpredictable character
2) prefer to do things alone
3) can be quite reckless when getting things done

These feedback really makes me reflect on myself. and i am gonna improve on them somehow maybe some new year resolution? Pretty amazed one year had passed so fast, and I gradually mooved on from afth. Seems like they are doing really well and i think i did a right thing to leave.

-Moo-

I am a guy that needs more love.

IA

as some have known, I am currently attached to a company for my school curriculum. I have been in the oil industry in a small office at loyang for almost a month already. Now got to tell some feelings I have before I forget them all.

With 15 employees or less, we have to fight everyday for Manuals, Orders, deadlines, assembly and designs. we are lack in manpower but still get the job done somehow. We aren't workaholic , still have time to take lunch or break. This is the life of a small company and I should say I kind of like the way we work. Priority comes first as always, which orders are.more  impt than the other, which parts are needed to run the factory,  all sorts of processes are everywhere, but we keep in contact with them. Sounds confusing? This is how we work. Hahahah! I should say for the engineering side, we help and depend one another very much. This is the working style I like, no superiority but just friends friends working together for a common goal.  Hopefully when I go our to work, I find work like this.