Before China-ing

Day 1 – 25th August 2008 (Monday)
Saying ‘Goodbye’ is not the words I used to my parents and siblings who are reluctant to see me leave, but it goes ‘Take Care, I’ll be back” when the group of Ngee Ann Polytechnic students is leaving for their Oversea Immersion Programme (OIP) to China.

The day was quite a sad one when this is the first time I will be leaving my country and family members for more than a month or so and not forgetting being alone. Looking at the bright side of life, I have my wonderful bunch of friends to keep me accompany, thus, this is also a time when I can get to know them even better, which is one of my personal goals at the end of this OIP. They are my working partners, enemies, study partners, sharing groups of friends and many more you can say. Futuremore, it also serves as an independent trip getting used to ‘survive or live’ without my parent’s supervision. This time, I have to settle my own daily meals, daily laundry and limiting the amount of money spent for this 6 weeks.

At the Airport, I observe that not many parents want their child to leave them as they are worried that something will happen to them especially to China where a case of earthquake happen not to long ago before this very day. I feel that there is a period of time where parents should ‘let them go’ and exposure their child as much as possible so that they will be able to get expose, gain personality such as confidence and some knowledge that are useful to their live. However, I can understand why parents feel that way. I feel sad for those who are far apart from their parents either they are overseas or not closed in terms of relationship. I think for those who are not closed to their parents because they chose to be should really reflect on themselves, they never know when they will miss them (mum’s cooking & care and concern which they took it for granted etc).

-Moo-

Having Common Test in China?

Road to Common Test

It started on Monday where I actually started studying for the coming SDC common test on Thursday. Many of us (my apartment group) had a 1-3 hours time to study daily excluding the lectures held in the morning, going through questions on tutorials as well as doing the past common test papers. It was a long week as every one of us fears the ‘stunning’ common test paper. I had Ryan and bobby to help me in understanding and to tackle questions that I did not know to solve. Appreciate the help from the both of them.

Well, it did not ended as well as what I think after I took the test on Thursday, instead I feel as though I did not do it well, getting an A. The questions are easy and I am sure I have done all of them doing the road to common test, just that something is missing over here. I believe some of the factors lie of the lack of practice, the quality of studying or do I not know my stuffs well enough. I do not know why but I feel that I am bad at doing well for any exams and tests, maybe is the confident level I have in myself. The challenge ahead will be greater as everyone wants to get an A of their own, especially if it will comes to my apartment friends. Damn pressurizing!

I will take this as a learning lesson, by making sure I can say really say I am ready and confident to do well for the final exam. Much practice is needed too. Wish me the best!

-Moo-

Giving but not getting

Something to think about...


"If you are closer to someone, does that also means the demand of someone will increase?"




Have you had this feeling of putting so much effort, but in the end, no one appreciates it? you are not alone.. share your feelings, you will feel better. Two words "thank you" were the hardest words that came out my mouth, thus affecting those who help me before, which i much regretted. Felt the same way as them if i am in their shoes.

I am sure most of us have experience it before unless you are one that doesn't have any feelings, Cold-blooded people which i use to see them most of the time out there. It's not late to change a little bit of yourself =) Good luck!

Another thing will be have you want help but it never comes? I am sure you will be sad or angry, for a period of a short time or perhaps, a longer period. Do look on the bright side of life, at least you know she's out there, just that she's busy with something else.
If you have not encounter it, do give a helping hand, someone out there will appreciate much.

Very much of time during my help out as a senior boy, i was mostly with myself, the drive for me to stay on was from my batch, a deal that we striked before we are L and not forgetting the people around me, friends and close ones, they are the ones who motivates. Apart from that, do not question me about my passion, it's still burning well, just that it relights a number of times, how long could i last? I don't really understand why people leave and go like that, it really demotivate the rest as well as the well being of the group.

Think about this, "留下的人依然最痛苦(the guy staying is suffering the most)", just like when your loved ones leave this world, how would you feel?

Spend a little bit of time thinking, Spare a thought. The Smile on your Face makes a difference! If your friends don have one, do get them yours =)


-Moo-