it happened really long ago, but i actually still rmb that very year, 1998, when i was in primary 4F. she was sitting beside me as a girl, a friend as well as a motivator. Her name is Sin Yee.
At first, we were sitting facing each other. Mr Mani was our Form Teacher back then. He's the one who suggested that we relocate our tables to sit beside each other as we can see the black board without tilting our heads. Bernard, Siti, Sin Yee and i were a group.
I wasn't really paying attention to her untill our mid year examinations where she scored a pretty high score for the chinese paper. The feeling it's like all the girls will be startled when their favourite guy idol make a impact? That's when i started noticing her.
She loved to use g1-pilot pen. speaks mandarin most of the time. That's how i rmbed her till now. it's quite amaze, maybe i have a good memory or something.
I recently found her on messenger, it really took me awhile. chat with her and found out she has a boyfriend.. that was pretty sad back then. haha. she qns me on why i didn't tell her, my answer to her is because i do not what love is, crush probably which i later learnt when I was growing in my secondary school years.
anyway, it has always been a good memory for me though i cannot have her but i am happy she's happy with another guy. Thank You.
-moo-
Monday, December 13, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
at the hospital
i was at the hospital today, reminds me for good as well as bad memories.
the hospital always provide me with a calm and serene atmosphere. my heartbeat became slower, mind refresh and quiet, the fast pace environment has been reduced greatly. i rmb the time when i was admitted to the hospital for a mini mani mini surgery. it's my in growth toe nail. i had my father to accompany me and back home. It was a scared for me, i hope i won't have to go into the surgery room again.
-moo-
the hospital always provide me with a calm and serene atmosphere. my heartbeat became slower, mind refresh and quiet, the fast pace environment has been reduced greatly. i rmb the time when i was admitted to the hospital for a mini mani mini surgery. it's my in growth toe nail. i had my father to accompany me and back home. It was a scared for me, i hope i won't have to go into the surgery room again.
-moo-
a little faith
do not know why, the mood has changes everything for us in the company line. whining? complaining and not complaining.
a needed motivation from someone i wish, but at the end, i went to do some research during my free time. here are some of encouraging words we can use,
1 "It doesn't matter how many say it cannot be done or how many people have tried it before; it's important to realize that whatever you're doing, it's your first attempt at it."
2 "Thinking will not overcome fear, but action will."
3 "Those who try to do something and fail are infinitely better than those who try to do nothing and succeed."
4 "Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can."
6 "When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
i love the last one, find it damn inspirational. It reminds me of my first love. It's a taste of life, sometimes it brought me happiness with sourness, a little regret, and it's reflects on how good and bad i am or basically how much i have grown.
the strength to carry on lies within
With
-moo-
a needed motivation from someone i wish, but at the end, i went to do some research during my free time. here are some of encouraging words we can use,
1 "It doesn't matter how many say it cannot be done or how many people have tried it before; it's important to realize that whatever you're doing, it's your first attempt at it."
2 "Thinking will not overcome fear, but action will."
3 "Those who try to do something and fail are infinitely better than those who try to do nothing and succeed."
4 "Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can."
5 "When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. "
6 "When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
i love the last one, find it damn inspirational. It reminds me of my first love. It's a taste of life, sometimes it brought me happiness with sourness, a little regret, and it's reflects on how good and bad i am or basically how much i have grown.
the strength to carry on lies within
With
-moo-
Thursday, November 25, 2010
幸福
the day i was hungry after booking out, as there was no dinner indented. i have two friends with me taking the bus to the interchange. Shared a couple of life and personal experiences we faced in camp while eating together cos one of my friends had no dinner.
Before that i was 'supposed' to be eating at home as i made some request to eat there by calling home before booking out. partially also because i wanted to eat with my father who is alone at home. My stomach couldn't really endure at the same time and i changed my mind by delaying my home dinner without informing back home. after 2 hrs, i managed to get back home and told them i had eaten.
i did not complain about being full but quietly took my 'rice' to eat after a persuasion from my father. While eating i had this feeling of crying, not happy not sad not guilty, nothing to do with emotions except the fact i feel i am 幸福, although the food wasn't really appealing.
I used to be complaining about the food they my parents cooked that are untasty, dull etc.
I used to make a fuss on eating late and kept them reminding me
I used to talk back at them because there were too much food
I used to nag at the quality of arrangement of my food, fried stuff cannot mixed with soup etc.
all these went to my mind while i was eating my 2nd 'dinner' at home. when there's no food, my parents will never ever tell me there's no food at home even though they did not make plans to cook. My parents will keep some food even though they 'know' i have eaten.
My parents are my parents. they don like me to waste food. they cook for me their best thought of my preference before theirs.
I am so lucky i realise it. I'm a changed person.
I love my family.
-moo-
with a tears drop along my cheek
Before that i was 'supposed' to be eating at home as i made some request to eat there by calling home before booking out. partially also because i wanted to eat with my father who is alone at home. My stomach couldn't really endure at the same time and i changed my mind by delaying my home dinner without informing back home. after 2 hrs, i managed to get back home and told them i had eaten.
i did not complain about being full but quietly took my 'rice' to eat after a persuasion from my father. While eating i had this feeling of crying, not happy not sad not guilty, nothing to do with emotions except the fact i feel i am 幸福, although the food wasn't really appealing.
I used to be complaining about the food they my parents cooked that are untasty, dull etc.
I used to make a fuss on eating late and kept them reminding me
I used to talk back at them because there were too much food
I used to nag at the quality of arrangement of my food, fried stuff cannot mixed with soup etc.
all these went to my mind while i was eating my 2nd 'dinner' at home. when there's no food, my parents will never ever tell me there's no food at home even though they did not make plans to cook. My parents will keep some food even though they 'know' i have eaten.
My parents are my parents. they don like me to waste food. they cook for me their best thought of my preference before theirs.
I am so lucky i realise it. I'm a changed person.
I love my family.
-moo-
with a tears drop along my cheek
Friday, November 12, 2010
12th Nov
today was a nice day to rmb for those i had encountered, especially the great traffic jam at aye, made all of us driving very slowly due to the jam at around 5 plus where we can actually take mrt, which confirm can be much faster. i was having a headache in the car, might be due to the ventilation or lack of rest or the irritating UE training.
morning, I was expecting much of the ppt to be done from the lappie, as we have to do it by thursday, a new deadline for us. But in the end it was such a disappointment, failure to have it in our training, due to some meetings he had. At the end nothing is done until next mon. as an oic, it's difficult not to think so much, felt that b4? but i relax, goonna enjoy my weekends! haha.. mon off!
alighted at city hall mrt with smart 4 on, never in my 14 months in ns.. so, it's quite happening to me.. couldn't avoid the many stares around.. I was at the traffic light wanting to buy something to eat but i saw this bus 851, a bus that i could take to my destination to buy my stuff for friends at golden dragon. i forgo my plans to eat and ran.. i was lucky enough to get to the bus stop b4 the bus, but eventually, i did not manage to board it as the bus end to a bus stop about 50m away. it did not stop where i did.. whahaha.. fuck la.. so pai sei, wore uniform run.
at chinatown, again have the impression of having ppl looking at me.. this time, i felt strange, as though ppl look at me becasue i did something wrong. went into a shopping centre, got to go up second storey before the store i wanted to patronize. on the journey there, there are many kinds of "lai ups" massage shops, at the same time many ppl walking, the stare to me, it's like as though i was a wanting-to-be-customer to them..
my phone was getting out of batt, but lucky i got chance to call dad for dinner. he asked me to buy liang teh for him, those medicine shops that sell, maybe it taste better there? i agreed and went for the search. took me 3 calls, 2 hp 1 public phone to confirm the shop, to think about it, it's the very first time i used a public time for a very very long time! but fortunately, Singapore still have. have u try asking someone, for a call on his/her hp? and nowadays, most of us have a phone.
i manage to start doing my gifts, spent 3 hrs doing the blue fist. shagged right now. got to go to bed early for a better tml, having headache too. 1 day left!
-moo-
morning, I was expecting much of the ppt to be done from the lappie, as we have to do it by thursday, a new deadline for us. But in the end it was such a disappointment, failure to have it in our training, due to some meetings he had. At the end nothing is done until next mon. as an oic, it's difficult not to think so much, felt that b4? but i relax, goonna enjoy my weekends! haha.. mon off!
alighted at city hall mrt with smart 4 on, never in my 14 months in ns.. so, it's quite happening to me.. couldn't avoid the many stares around.. I was at the traffic light wanting to buy something to eat but i saw this bus 851, a bus that i could take to my destination to buy my stuff for friends at golden dragon. i forgo my plans to eat and ran.. i was lucky enough to get to the bus stop b4 the bus, but eventually, i did not manage to board it as the bus end to a bus stop about 50m away. it did not stop where i did.. whahaha.. fuck la.. so pai sei, wore uniform run.
at chinatown, again have the impression of having ppl looking at me.. this time, i felt strange, as though ppl look at me becasue i did something wrong. went into a shopping centre, got to go up second storey before the store i wanted to patronize. on the journey there, there are many kinds of "lai ups" massage shops, at the same time many ppl walking, the stare to me, it's like as though i was a wanting-to-be-customer to them..
my phone was getting out of batt, but lucky i got chance to call dad for dinner. he asked me to buy liang teh for him, those medicine shops that sell, maybe it taste better there? i agreed and went for the search. took me 3 calls, 2 hp 1 public phone to confirm the shop, to think about it, it's the very first time i used a public time for a very very long time! but fortunately, Singapore still have. have u try asking someone, for a call on his/her hp? and nowadays, most of us have a phone.
i manage to start doing my gifts, spent 3 hrs doing the blue fist. shagged right now. got to go to bed early for a better tml, having headache too. 1 day left!
-moo-
Thursday, November 11, 2010
14th Nov
a special day? a day to rmb? to look forward? it's actually my birthday!
but seldom i expect good things would happen.
envy many with good birthday plans, very nice friends and the birthday party itself! haha, maybe when i have a very good friend around who knows me.
I will love to be alone or in smaller groups, dislike noise and crowdy areas. what do i wish for? my family's health, my future and my wife to be. every year it would be the same.. but i don see any coming? haha!
I wish for, is simple, if u happen to read this, just sing me a birthday song!
-moo-
but seldom i expect good things would happen.
envy many with good birthday plans, very nice friends and the birthday party itself! haha, maybe when i have a very good friend around who knows me.
I will love to be alone or in smaller groups, dislike noise and crowdy areas. what do i wish for? my family's health, my future and my wife to be. every year it would be the same.. but i don see any coming? haha!
I wish for, is simple, if u happen to read this, just sing me a birthday song!
-moo-
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
a rainy day
I was woken up by my alarm clock, head down to plc for com training, on the way got drench.. got this uncomfortable feeling on the outside due to the rain but everything was warm in the inside, maybe i like the rain OR I AM GOING TO GET SICK!
It's getting advance in technology where we can actually use com to fight one another using technical and planning strategies to fight. that's what my company will do for the next two months (1 week per month). shiok sia, stay out, so ppl out there, i'm free after 6, call me and i will be there, priority goes to family first.. second will be scouts?
After a tiring stare for hours on the com, we break free to jp. had pizza hut and were not satisfied with our stomach, tried the 7 cheese whatever pizza, sibei bo hua. eat too much might puke, sorry that's my own preference.. do try it!
got home, get to see my father getting better, felt happy. mum came back from work, even happier. it's the 3 of us left in the house, bro got family outside, now u know why i got to be a good man going back. can't stop worrying, how? but what to do?
-moo-dy-
It's getting advance in technology where we can actually use com to fight one another using technical and planning strategies to fight. that's what my company will do for the next two months (1 week per month). shiok sia, stay out, so ppl out there, i'm free after 6, call me and i will be there, priority goes to family first.. second will be scouts?
After a tiring stare for hours on the com, we break free to jp. had pizza hut and were not satisfied with our stomach, tried the 7 cheese whatever pizza, sibei bo hua. eat too much might puke, sorry that's my own preference.. do try it!
got home, get to see my father getting better, felt happy. mum came back from work, even happier. it's the 3 of us left in the house, bro got family outside, now u know why i got to be a good man going back. can't stop worrying, how? but what to do?
-moo-dy-
Friday, October 29, 2010
money not enough
regret the way i spent my money this month, the allocation was a little wrong or never really plan well. Now will have to survive by cutting down on food spent, gg out and also night's out.
Betting came to be a serious case for me which i really hope i have the discipline now to cut away or much lesser. the last bets made me lost 100-120, which reduces my movement in and outside camp. it taught me a lesson, and i will change.
-moo-
Betting came to be a serious case for me which i really hope i have the discipline now to cut away or much lesser. the last bets made me lost 100-120, which reduces my movement in and outside camp. it taught me a lesson, and i will change.
-moo-
Thursday, October 14, 2010
i hope i am doing well
=)
It never came across my mind before until recently. Well there's a fear in what i decide to do, whether it will pass or fail? succeed or nvr or sometimes breaking up a relationship i call 关系. I am a straight forward guy, loud, a person with own values and conservative guy. I am sure friends who know me, hate but also like me, i hope.
my life these days are in the army, receiving my allowance of 600 a month with 300 to my father for savings and spending, 150 for bike lessons and 150 for self and transport, no girlfriend or chiong but got bet on footballs. free time read books, do projects and go out with friends. the things i share or confine are not fixed. but usually i just say like water to a suay person. basically i believe what i say are my weaknesses as well as somethings i need to improve on.
i just wish i have a girl to go out with and talk, anything everything under the sun. needs a little motivation.. wish me luck
-moo-
It never came across my mind before until recently. Well there's a fear in what i decide to do, whether it will pass or fail? succeed or nvr or sometimes breaking up a relationship i call 关系. I am a straight forward guy, loud, a person with own values and conservative guy. I am sure friends who know me, hate but also like me, i hope.
my life these days are in the army, receiving my allowance of 600 a month with 300 to my father for savings and spending, 150 for bike lessons and 150 for self and transport, no girlfriend or chiong but got bet on footballs. free time read books, do projects and go out with friends. the things i share or confine are not fixed. but usually i just say like water to a suay person. basically i believe what i say are my weaknesses as well as somethings i need to improve on.
i just wish i have a girl to go out with and talk, anything everything under the sun. needs a little motivation.. wish me luck
-moo-
Monday, September 13, 2010
a miscommunication
Caller : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan (anyone)?
Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.
Caller : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan(anyone)!
Operator : You are talking to someone! Who is this?
Caller : I'm Sam Wan (Someone). And I need to talk to Annie Wan (anyone)! It's urgent.
Operator : I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?
Caller : Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan (anyone) that our brother Noel Wan (no one)has involved in an accident. Noel Wan (no one)got injured and now Noel Wan (no one) is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan (everyone) is on his way to the hospital.
Operator : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!
Caller : You are so rude! Who are you?
Operator : I'm Saw Lee (Sorry).
Caller : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!
Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.
Caller : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan(anyone)!
Operator : You are talking to someone! Who is this?
Caller : I'm Sam Wan (Someone). And I need to talk to Annie Wan (anyone)! It's urgent.
Operator : I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?
Caller : Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan (anyone) that our brother Noel Wan (no one)has involved in an accident. Noel Wan (no one)got injured and now Noel Wan (no one) is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan (everyone) is on his way to the hospital.
Operator : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!
Caller : You are so rude! Who are you?
Operator : I'm Saw Lee (Sorry).
Caller : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Re: In Camp
seriously, it gets harder to get ppl out nowadays.. understand they are busy with their work or maybe i became more enthu to ask ppl out.. can't they find some time? It's been a long time, dey! excuses are often seen, until i got disappointed in them to ask ppl out.. can you imagine? usually ppl ask ppl out the feeling should be happy? i guessed not many understand the time spent with friends is more important than anything else.
moo
moo
Friday, April 30, 2010
一个故事
从前有一个老夫妻每一次要睡觉前, 都会闹了一反. 由于老公在睡里经常放屁和打鼾, 使老婆在夜里睡不着. 每一个晚上闹了闹了, 直到有一天, 她老公患上了一种病, 已经活不了多少..
因为医 用使这两老夫妻没办法负担, 他们就只好住在家里. 看到老公已经要离去, 老婆只能安静哭着照顾老公. 直到有一天, 老公在离去的一刻看着老婆, 哭笑说了一声"对不起", 使老婆婆坚持控制眼泪, 也毫不犹豫流了下来.
从此, 老婆婆在无发听见老公的声音之下而睡不着, 只能默默地想往后的日子, 每一天"开开心心"地陪老公一起闹, 也怀念老公的屁和打鼾....
外婆外公, 我好想念你!
-niu-
因为医 用使这两老夫妻没办法负担, 他们就只好住在家里. 看到老公已经要离去, 老婆只能安静哭着照顾老公. 直到有一天, 老公在离去的一刻看着老婆, 哭笑说了一声"对不起", 使老婆婆坚持控制眼泪, 也毫不犹豫流了下来.
从此, 老婆婆在无发听见老公的声音之下而睡不着, 只能默默地想往后的日子, 每一天"开开心心"地陪老公一起闹, 也怀念老公的屁和打鼾....
外婆外公, 我好想念你!
-niu-
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
我希望
我希望, papa and mama will be happier than before
我希望, i will find someone to confine in.
我希望, gor gor and jiali will not quarrel with papa mama concerning baby
我希望, Dong Si Hui can grow up to be healthy and happy
我希望, papa's health can be further improved
我希望, gor gor and jiali need not move house so soon
我希望 我希望...
我希望, i will find someone to confine in.
我希望, gor gor and jiali will not quarrel with papa mama concerning baby
我希望, Dong Si Hui can grow up to be healthy and happy
我希望, papa's health can be further improved
我希望, gor gor and jiali need not move house so soon
我希望 我希望...
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
14th April 2010
it's been a tiring day for me, imagine riding on a bike (avg 45km/hr) on the traffic for 8-10 hrs and total distance covered is about 140km.. SHAG! backside pain! Night riding was really good, get to enjoy the wind, speeding? and sightseeing the east area called Tampines. will want to try that in the near future... VesPa, i will ride u soon! Red or orange will be nice.
got to go slp early tonight, TML TEST!
Moo Teng
命中主定我爱你 is a good show, can pick up lots of things from it, try it!
got to go slp early tonight, TML TEST!
Moo Teng
命中主定我爱你 is a good show, can pick up lots of things from it, try it!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
13th April 2010
i passed my balancing test and wet surface braking! so happy, public road is scary, but exciting! can't wait for the test! quite a tiring day for the 5 of us, been riding almost every secs.. xin ku le, but we made it! =)
it's raining, cold wind and cool weather, gonna go slp real soon. weather! it's been hot this few days, let rain comes!
had a good chat with ax, it's like so long nvr really talk.. catch up a little.. exams are just papers to make ppl busy, damn! it's makes me rmb the days in sec sch where tests i din study!
Moooing
it's raining, cold wind and cool weather, gonna go slp real soon. weather! it's been hot this few days, let rain comes!
had a good chat with ax, it's like so long nvr really talk.. catch up a little.. exams are just papers to make ppl busy, damn! it's makes me rmb the days in sec sch where tests i din study!
Moooing
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