i was at the hospital today, reminds me for good as well as bad memories.
the hospital always provide me with a calm and serene atmosphere. my heartbeat became slower, mind refresh and quiet, the fast pace environment has been reduced greatly. i rmb the time when i was admitted to the hospital for a mini mani mini surgery. it's my in growth toe nail. i had my father to accompany me and back home. It was a scared for me, i hope i won't have to go into the surgery room again.
-moo-
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
a little faith
do not know why, the mood has changes everything for us in the company line. whining? complaining and not complaining.
a needed motivation from someone i wish, but at the end, i went to do some research during my free time. here are some of encouraging words we can use,
1 "It doesn't matter how many say it cannot be done or how many people have tried it before; it's important to realize that whatever you're doing, it's your first attempt at it."
2 "Thinking will not overcome fear, but action will."
3 "Those who try to do something and fail are infinitely better than those who try to do nothing and succeed."
4 "Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can."
6 "When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
i love the last one, find it damn inspirational. It reminds me of my first love. It's a taste of life, sometimes it brought me happiness with sourness, a little regret, and it's reflects on how good and bad i am or basically how much i have grown.
the strength to carry on lies within
With
-moo-
a needed motivation from someone i wish, but at the end, i went to do some research during my free time. here are some of encouraging words we can use,
1 "It doesn't matter how many say it cannot be done or how many people have tried it before; it's important to realize that whatever you're doing, it's your first attempt at it."
2 "Thinking will not overcome fear, but action will."
3 "Those who try to do something and fail are infinitely better than those who try to do nothing and succeed."
4 "Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can."
5 "When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. "
6 "When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
i love the last one, find it damn inspirational. It reminds me of my first love. It's a taste of life, sometimes it brought me happiness with sourness, a little regret, and it's reflects on how good and bad i am or basically how much i have grown.
the strength to carry on lies within
With
-moo-
Thursday, November 25, 2010
幸福
the day i was hungry after booking out, as there was no dinner indented. i have two friends with me taking the bus to the interchange. Shared a couple of life and personal experiences we faced in camp while eating together cos one of my friends had no dinner.
Before that i was 'supposed' to be eating at home as i made some request to eat there by calling home before booking out. partially also because i wanted to eat with my father who is alone at home. My stomach couldn't really endure at the same time and i changed my mind by delaying my home dinner without informing back home. after 2 hrs, i managed to get back home and told them i had eaten.
i did not complain about being full but quietly took my 'rice' to eat after a persuasion from my father. While eating i had this feeling of crying, not happy not sad not guilty, nothing to do with emotions except the fact i feel i am 幸福, although the food wasn't really appealing.
I used to be complaining about the food they my parents cooked that are untasty, dull etc.
I used to make a fuss on eating late and kept them reminding me
I used to talk back at them because there were too much food
I used to nag at the quality of arrangement of my food, fried stuff cannot mixed with soup etc.
all these went to my mind while i was eating my 2nd 'dinner' at home. when there's no food, my parents will never ever tell me there's no food at home even though they did not make plans to cook. My parents will keep some food even though they 'know' i have eaten.
My parents are my parents. they don like me to waste food. they cook for me their best thought of my preference before theirs.
I am so lucky i realise it. I'm a changed person.
I love my family.
-moo-
with a tears drop along my cheek
Before that i was 'supposed' to be eating at home as i made some request to eat there by calling home before booking out. partially also because i wanted to eat with my father who is alone at home. My stomach couldn't really endure at the same time and i changed my mind by delaying my home dinner without informing back home. after 2 hrs, i managed to get back home and told them i had eaten.
i did not complain about being full but quietly took my 'rice' to eat after a persuasion from my father. While eating i had this feeling of crying, not happy not sad not guilty, nothing to do with emotions except the fact i feel i am 幸福, although the food wasn't really appealing.
I used to be complaining about the food they my parents cooked that are untasty, dull etc.
I used to make a fuss on eating late and kept them reminding me
I used to talk back at them because there were too much food
I used to nag at the quality of arrangement of my food, fried stuff cannot mixed with soup etc.
all these went to my mind while i was eating my 2nd 'dinner' at home. when there's no food, my parents will never ever tell me there's no food at home even though they did not make plans to cook. My parents will keep some food even though they 'know' i have eaten.
My parents are my parents. they don like me to waste food. they cook for me their best thought of my preference before theirs.
I am so lucky i realise it. I'm a changed person.
I love my family.
-moo-
with a tears drop along my cheek
Friday, November 12, 2010
12th Nov
today was a nice day to rmb for those i had encountered, especially the great traffic jam at aye, made all of us driving very slowly due to the jam at around 5 plus where we can actually take mrt, which confirm can be much faster. i was having a headache in the car, might be due to the ventilation or lack of rest or the irritating UE training.
morning, I was expecting much of the ppt to be done from the lappie, as we have to do it by thursday, a new deadline for us. But in the end it was such a disappointment, failure to have it in our training, due to some meetings he had. At the end nothing is done until next mon. as an oic, it's difficult not to think so much, felt that b4? but i relax, goonna enjoy my weekends! haha.. mon off!
alighted at city hall mrt with smart 4 on, never in my 14 months in ns.. so, it's quite happening to me.. couldn't avoid the many stares around.. I was at the traffic light wanting to buy something to eat but i saw this bus 851, a bus that i could take to my destination to buy my stuff for friends at golden dragon. i forgo my plans to eat and ran.. i was lucky enough to get to the bus stop b4 the bus, but eventually, i did not manage to board it as the bus end to a bus stop about 50m away. it did not stop where i did.. whahaha.. fuck la.. so pai sei, wore uniform run.
at chinatown, again have the impression of having ppl looking at me.. this time, i felt strange, as though ppl look at me becasue i did something wrong. went into a shopping centre, got to go up second storey before the store i wanted to patronize. on the journey there, there are many kinds of "lai ups" massage shops, at the same time many ppl walking, the stare to me, it's like as though i was a wanting-to-be-customer to them..
my phone was getting out of batt, but lucky i got chance to call dad for dinner. he asked me to buy liang teh for him, those medicine shops that sell, maybe it taste better there? i agreed and went for the search. took me 3 calls, 2 hp 1 public phone to confirm the shop, to think about it, it's the very first time i used a public time for a very very long time! but fortunately, Singapore still have. have u try asking someone, for a call on his/her hp? and nowadays, most of us have a phone.
i manage to start doing my gifts, spent 3 hrs doing the blue fist. shagged right now. got to go to bed early for a better tml, having headache too. 1 day left!
-moo-
morning, I was expecting much of the ppt to be done from the lappie, as we have to do it by thursday, a new deadline for us. But in the end it was such a disappointment, failure to have it in our training, due to some meetings he had. At the end nothing is done until next mon. as an oic, it's difficult not to think so much, felt that b4? but i relax, goonna enjoy my weekends! haha.. mon off!
alighted at city hall mrt with smart 4 on, never in my 14 months in ns.. so, it's quite happening to me.. couldn't avoid the many stares around.. I was at the traffic light wanting to buy something to eat but i saw this bus 851, a bus that i could take to my destination to buy my stuff for friends at golden dragon. i forgo my plans to eat and ran.. i was lucky enough to get to the bus stop b4 the bus, but eventually, i did not manage to board it as the bus end to a bus stop about 50m away. it did not stop where i did.. whahaha.. fuck la.. so pai sei, wore uniform run.
at chinatown, again have the impression of having ppl looking at me.. this time, i felt strange, as though ppl look at me becasue i did something wrong. went into a shopping centre, got to go up second storey before the store i wanted to patronize. on the journey there, there are many kinds of "lai ups" massage shops, at the same time many ppl walking, the stare to me, it's like as though i was a wanting-to-be-customer to them..
my phone was getting out of batt, but lucky i got chance to call dad for dinner. he asked me to buy liang teh for him, those medicine shops that sell, maybe it taste better there? i agreed and went for the search. took me 3 calls, 2 hp 1 public phone to confirm the shop, to think about it, it's the very first time i used a public time for a very very long time! but fortunately, Singapore still have. have u try asking someone, for a call on his/her hp? and nowadays, most of us have a phone.
i manage to start doing my gifts, spent 3 hrs doing the blue fist. shagged right now. got to go to bed early for a better tml, having headache too. 1 day left!
-moo-
Thursday, November 11, 2010
14th Nov
a special day? a day to rmb? to look forward? it's actually my birthday!
but seldom i expect good things would happen.
envy many with good birthday plans, very nice friends and the birthday party itself! haha, maybe when i have a very good friend around who knows me.
I will love to be alone or in smaller groups, dislike noise and crowdy areas. what do i wish for? my family's health, my future and my wife to be. every year it would be the same.. but i don see any coming? haha!
I wish for, is simple, if u happen to read this, just sing me a birthday song!
-moo-
but seldom i expect good things would happen.
envy many with good birthday plans, very nice friends and the birthday party itself! haha, maybe when i have a very good friend around who knows me.
I will love to be alone or in smaller groups, dislike noise and crowdy areas. what do i wish for? my family's health, my future and my wife to be. every year it would be the same.. but i don see any coming? haha!
I wish for, is simple, if u happen to read this, just sing me a birthday song!
-moo-
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
a rainy day
I was woken up by my alarm clock, head down to plc for com training, on the way got drench.. got this uncomfortable feeling on the outside due to the rain but everything was warm in the inside, maybe i like the rain OR I AM GOING TO GET SICK!
It's getting advance in technology where we can actually use com to fight one another using technical and planning strategies to fight. that's what my company will do for the next two months (1 week per month). shiok sia, stay out, so ppl out there, i'm free after 6, call me and i will be there, priority goes to family first.. second will be scouts?
After a tiring stare for hours on the com, we break free to jp. had pizza hut and were not satisfied with our stomach, tried the 7 cheese whatever pizza, sibei bo hua. eat too much might puke, sorry that's my own preference.. do try it!
got home, get to see my father getting better, felt happy. mum came back from work, even happier. it's the 3 of us left in the house, bro got family outside, now u know why i got to be a good man going back. can't stop worrying, how? but what to do?
-moo-dy-
It's getting advance in technology where we can actually use com to fight one another using technical and planning strategies to fight. that's what my company will do for the next two months (1 week per month). shiok sia, stay out, so ppl out there, i'm free after 6, call me and i will be there, priority goes to family first.. second will be scouts?
After a tiring stare for hours on the com, we break free to jp. had pizza hut and were not satisfied with our stomach, tried the 7 cheese whatever pizza, sibei bo hua. eat too much might puke, sorry that's my own preference.. do try it!
got home, get to see my father getting better, felt happy. mum came back from work, even happier. it's the 3 of us left in the house, bro got family outside, now u know why i got to be a good man going back. can't stop worrying, how? but what to do?
-moo-dy-
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