幸福

the day i was hungry after booking out, as there was no dinner indented. i have two friends with me taking the bus to the interchange. Shared a couple of life and personal experiences we faced in camp while eating together cos one of my friends had no dinner.

Before that i was 'supposed' to be eating at home as i made some request to eat there by calling home before booking out. partially also because i wanted to eat with my father who is alone at home. My stomach couldn't really endure at the same time and i changed my mind by delaying my home dinner without informing back home. after 2 hrs, i managed to get back home and told them i had eaten.

i did not complain about being full but quietly took my 'rice' to eat after a persuasion from my father. While eating i had this feeling of crying, not happy not sad not guilty, nothing to do with emotions except the fact i feel i am 幸福, although the food wasn't really appealing.

I used to be complaining about the food they my parents cooked that are untasty, dull etc.

I used to make a fuss on eating late and kept them reminding me

I used to talk back at them because there were too much food

I used to nag at the quality of arrangement of my food, fried stuff cannot mixed with soup etc.

all these went to my mind while i was eating my 2nd 'dinner' at home. when there's no food, my parents will never ever tell me there's no food at home even though they did not make plans to cook. My parents will keep some food even though they 'know' i have eaten.

My parents are my parents. they don like me to waste food. they cook for me their best thought of my preference before theirs.

I am so lucky i realise it. I'm a changed person.

I love my family.

-moo-

with a tears drop along my cheek