4 days 3 nights

after what happen in the hospital with dad, i come to take a closer view on how gor gor has pull through with him. With dad's strict supervision and his theories, it was nvr easy for both of them.. i was really amazed on gor gor reacted during his days at home especially his power of love. He never give up and her was everything through the years. His studies and work was nvr a priority but still, he manage to balance, support and provide. He chose a family and his happiness. they have been together ever since JC year 2, till now, they have their 2nd child already at the age of 29! what can i say! they can write their love story on 那些年. Patience, perseverance, priority are the three headings i used to describe his real life story. I am very happy to have him!

i was willing to help gor gor on moving the house's furniture after my work, so that jiali can move around freely when she returns home. Matilda was left with mother in law to take care when gor gor was visiting jiali. Mum took her up and brought her back to gor gor's house (mother in law house is on the 2nd storey, gor gor = 8th) That left me with dad, mum and myself. It was the last day when Matilda last saw her mum. She cried everyday, missing her sing when she was about to sleep and not forgetting her nvr leave her mum attitude, her calling of mummy mummy is repeated everytime and so on.. Looking at her when i was playing with her, it leaves me with a heartache. knowing that matilda will pester jiali in the hospital, we were told not to mention or remind mat of mummy for 4 days and 3 nights. can imagine if she's older? or perhaps when u grow up, this someone is not there?

luckily mat is still young, and jiali is returning tml! yeah! good news. Gor Gor also wanted the family to be happy, but he can only see and tell seperately between the times at the hospital with jiali and at home with matilda. i feel for him and i know everything he has done, he will be happy!

moo

my thoughts i wish to share

I miss my brother and it started ever since he left the house to start a family. It was 3 years ago then. Now that i am out of the army, the house is still as quiet as before. i really wonder how my father been through, that always been my worry.
My house is the only thing to talk to, facing the room, singing songs that relates my feeling. i once told many i really wish to have a sister, be it younger or older, she is there to listen to me, and scold me if needed.

I have three friends of mine, which i see them as my sisters, they are called asa, not putting up names for their security reasons. I hope I have always do my best to help them when i can, encourage them on their studies or work, and the old tradition of celebrating their birthday if i can with a present, or to sum up, playing a role of a brother to my sister. Not asking for anything in return, i just hope they appears more often and ask for my well being. I will feel shy at first, and usually 'run' to find things to do, but when it's time, i let out to them. All those are from the past, which i really appreciate. Their presence, their commitment, and their questions? makes me a better, happier person. Because they are girls, they also help me in being more vocal building up my confidence level. Now, I feel that our distance are getting further and further apart, but it is something to feel happy about, they have a better and special partner to be with, they have grown up, and already entered a new phase in life. Nothing to lose, they bring me great memories which i hold on dearly and whenever i am down, i think of their smile.

I am always worrying things. My ex girlfriend pointed out to me when we were on a relationship and I thank her for that. I never deny it, but i try to reduce it somehow now.

For the past year or so in the army, I nvr have to worry about scouts while in the past i do. I got over "my expectations" vs "what is the situation" and did not dwell over it anymore. Army friends make me believe in long term friendship and were always there to encourage and give support. I got over stressing myself in doing well and now, letting go of people who were once my close friends. Life goes on and I grow to become stronger

至少還有你 - 林憶蓮

-changed moo-

Mooved

Ord Really soon! Should be really happy for myself.. Never did I expect this someone ask me how should I celebrate it, shouldn't it be a joyous time? I say I am not going to. Makes me think so much and become sad about myself later on, yes maybe I should ask some friends out, and shared this once in a life time happiness. It seriously hard to have this kind of occasion. Maybe like when I graduate? My wedding? That's all bah! Let's called it mooved = moo + loved + move on, to celebrate the little happy things that is happening now. What if it's a sad thing? HhhhHhMmmmmMMMmmm! I had a self-declared emo month, can called it a minor depression, or some being sick. Perhaps worrying too much. I have been improving, not to worry. just that things are not coming that good again., hopefully mooved will help. I am so looking forward to my next step, to study! So happy I can entered the university, special thanks to my friends from poly, they are the siao on ones who are smart to teach me to study, my secondary school friends, who taught me what is important and what I want, to my family who spend so much on me and lastly me, who survive everything. Now this worries me, can u do it again? Haha! Looking for a girl has always motivate me to live on. Haha! Cos u never know when she's coming, it is just a mystery making u feel uneasy, or in Chinese, xin yang yang! I'm not a handsome guy neither a smart one or rich guy, just that I am a very family-oriented person. That's all! Share quite a few. Till then, wish me luck! -moo-

新鴛鴦蝴蝶夢

新鴛鴦蝴蝶夢

昨日像那東流水　離我遠去不可留　
今日亂我心　多煩憂
抽刀斷水水更流　舉杯消愁愁更愁　
明朝清風四飄流
由來只有新人笑　有誰聽到舊人哭　
愛情兩個字　好辛苦
是要問一個明白　還是要裝作糊塗　
知多知少難知足
看似個鴛鴦蝴蝶　不應該的年代　
可是誰又能擺脫人世間的悲哀
花花世界　鴛鴦蝴蝶　在人間已是癲　
何苦要上青天　不如溫柔同眠

怀念金曲 the moo

Babies!

My brother will be having their second child! hahah.. Jiali told the family during our dinner at the grand hyatt last saturday. It is due on december. hahaha! We are so happy for him! Don't worry Matilda, we still loved you much!

-Bboy-

my childhood cousin

finally she found someone nice and stable.. i am very happy for her, as well as sad to be left.. it's really nice to see her holding hands. have someone to be with, when mostly i am not around. haha.

life goes on, but why do i have a kind of feeling of not letting her go? not say i love her but it's strange, of not wanting the people you have, to be leaving you for example. i guess i realized what she meant by "leaving her alone" when i first got attached.

-moo-

fire?

the committment is there, not the fire..

-moo-

simple day

it's been quite a meaningful day for me, got to chill up with merv, prash, alex and zy for the first time after so long.. got to know them better slightly, wasn't a big group but just nice..

i always had this no thing that i don want to go drinking with them, cos they are just drinking, which i din like it so much.. beer taste sucks.

presents i brought for them but i din expect the attendance, din give it to them in the end. haha. probably i see them during scout meetings.. yes, another qi dai from me..

went home, chat with a few school friends in facebook. seems like class gathering is failing, but we see how tml. hate it when ppl don reply, expect an organizer to call everyone, ya it's how much u want somehow, but when i see ppl on facebook? they don even reply.. living in the world of their own. grow up la! can't believe our class is like that? appreciate those who replies.

i have been thinking quite alot, but when will it stop? these thinkings killing me off.

-moo-

emos

Someone pls call me out to cry with you!

-moo-