My house is the only thing to talk to, facing the room, singing songs that relates my feeling. i once told many i really wish to have a sister, be it younger or older, she is there to listen to me, and scold me if needed.
I have three friends of mine, which i see them as my sisters, they are called asa, not putting up names for their security reasons. I hope I have always do my best to help them when i can, encourage them on their studies or work, and the old tradition of celebrating their birthday if i can with a present, or to sum up, playing a role of a brother to my sister. Not asking for anything in return, i just hope they appears more often and ask for my well being. I will feel shy at first, and usually 'run' to find things to do, but when it's time, i let out to them. All those are from the past, which i really appreciate. Their presence, their commitment, and their questions? makes me a better, happier person. Because they are girls, they also help me in being more vocal building up my confidence level. Now, I feel that our distance are getting further and further apart, but it is something to feel happy about, they have a better and special partner to be with, they have grown up, and already entered a new phase in life. Nothing to lose, they bring me great memories which i hold on dearly and whenever i am down, i think of their smile.
I am always worrying things. My ex girlfriend pointed out to me when we were on a relationship and I thank her for that. I never deny it, but i try to reduce it somehow now.
For the past year or so in the army, I nvr have to worry about scouts while in the past i do. I got over "my expectations" vs "what is the situation" and did not dwell over it anymore. Army friends make me believe in long term friendship and were always there to encourage and give support. I got over stressing myself in doing well and now, letting go of people who were once my close friends. Life goes on and I grow to become stronger
至少還有你 - 林憶蓮
-changed moo-
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