Before i entered the army, I had a brother who left the house to pursuit his future or to say living his next stage in life. That leaves my parents and myself in the house.
My father has been a "housewife" for the family, cooks, cleans, repairs, savings, discipline and everything in the house, he's in charge of the income savings. his health made him retired early and began to lead a life responsible for the children. My mother would then have to take charge for the income part, earning for the 3 of us. We lead a simple and humble life, spending money on expensive meals, recreation activities; going out could be tough. Sometimes, we could be that thrifty.
Talking about my father, he spends most of the time at home. We know sometimes, at home can really be a good thing, comfort, space, entertainment for some, sleep etc, but to be at home alone, i am sure u will get bored or maybe vex? Sometimes I did feel sad for him and it was also why i usually went home after school. Sometimes, i find the time to go out when he was having his nap or maybe when he made short trips to the market to talk to his friends just to avoid him seeing me go. The good thing, he is quite sociable but loyal if you know what i mean. He has lots of friends who he chat with in the neighbourhood; betting buddies, childhood friends; neighbours etc., which make me less worried and relieved at the same time. Plus, i often give him some task to do, like designing my module projects, getting him to think of ideas.. making something new to use, helping me run errands, and judge my fashion senses. I guess that's what i can do to manage his boredom.
Talking about my mother, she had work commitment to support the family. I could talk to her in the morning when she was in the afternoon shift or when she came back home in the morning shift. As a son, as always, the first thing I asked if she had eaten her meals. Although she says yes, I did have a feeling she had not. She was working as a salesperson, selling cosmetic perfumes; she is fighter and would not give up doing her best for the company. She would usually eats her dinner at 4, it is considered as the low peak period. If she knew that she would go back at 8, she would skip her meals to do more sales before she leaves. There's a stubbornness in my family, 能省就省. and to her, she loves the house more than anyone else. During her free time, she loves to clean the house beautifully and nags at me on my room untidiness. Her work required her to stand for long hours and because of it, she had complaints on her body; aches and cramps on her legs and back were the common. As much as i could write lots of it here in the blog, I did show some concerns but i believe life for her could be better. She had made some sacrifices which I could not change but to feel appreciated that I have such a wonderful mum.
Both my parents are very happy when they see their grandchildren. (my brother is married with two kids) and when they don see them, they will still talk about them, reminisce what they do, how they talk and what they like about them.
I once told my friends and cousins on how I felt being the only child left in the
house, yet they laughed at me, why so foolish? You have us? but most of times people move on in the chapters of their life, they talked about it but won't there. I was hurt that time when i heard that but i know this is how this is how life works.
Hoping someone will know how's the feeling like and understand.
I have been surviving in uni, manage to pull through a year with pass results. but this give me some thoughts about my future. Without good grades, finding a job could be tough and whether i could get one when the market wasn't that good. I shan't think more on this, but lets make my uni life without regrets. #lookingbackatwhyareyouherefor
受一点伤并不是可怕的事, 人就是这样还会越来越坚强.
-Moo Teng-
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